Saturday, December 22, 2018

Christmas Greeting

There are a lot of messages that fly around Christmas, like — “Christmas is about love”, “it is about family,” it’s about gifts,” “it’s about Santa Clause,” “lights,” “indoor trees,” “it’s about giving,” “Turkey,” “ham,” “seasonal songs,” “shopping,” and of course “Shepherds, sheep, wisemen, angels, and baby Jesus.” What if I told you that Christmas’ isn’t about any of these things?

Christmas is a mystery, a veil temporarily pulled back, a battle. Christmas is birth and death, bondage and freedom, grace and mercy, love against the background of hatred, goodness pushing past evil, and light breaking through the darkness to give us a glimpse of God.

The smile on a step-father’s face, the gleam in the new mother’s eyes, the wonder of the shepherds and the quizzical expression of the angles who looked down in awe of God’s work of Grace. All of this but a blimp in the course of time, a prequel to a more dramatic moment of God’s relentless love and Grace.

This is Christmas in all its splendor, for which we gather in large groups and small, to worship the God who made it all possible. This is Christmas, I’m just saying — MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Tuesday, December 18, 2018

Baby Ralphie, Really?

Christmas wouldn’t be complete if there wasn’t some kind of controversy about, well, something. This year the anti-gun people are upset because a photographer used a baby as the backdrop for Christmas (or holiday) icons. In the background you have the leg lamp (a classic), the bunny suit, and of course the BB gun, all references to a particular movie. The baby, of course, is adorable, and the gun is kind of funny. Is it offensive, bad taste, abusive, or borderline hilarious? I’m sure that the photographer knew there would be an uproar, that’s why he did it. 

The holiday, however, is about another baby. Jesus has been more controversial over the years than any gun toting infant will ever be. The nativity has been thrown out of more public areas than we could count, and the irony is that Jesus came to bring peace. I guess you can’t have guns or peace. I understand the angst over the baby hunter, but why has Jesus been offensive?

The scripture says that the cross is foolish to the Greeks and a stumbling block to the Jews. The world can’t comprehend why God would send his own son to die a miserable death for someone else’s sin. The baby in swaddling cloth represents the innocence that is prepared for the slaughter, and that is untenable. Baby Ralphy can at least defend himself. I guess that’s the point of Jesus. He didn’t want protected. He gave his life freely. The baby swaddled in a food trough felt safe surrounded by family, both earthly and heavenly. Yet, in the darkness the evil one lurks, seeking to consume him. For a moment, the innocence and glory of God meet in the most offensive infant ever to be born.

As believers we embrace the offense, the angst, the guile that the world throws at Emmanuel, God with us. We uplift the miracle of God breaking into the word — Emmanuel, God with us. We accept by faith the reconciliation of a rebellious world to its creator — Emmanuel, God with us. We receive this gift of salvation, the freedom from the bondage of sin — Emmanuel, God with us. So, this Christmas, as unbelievers wrestle with the tension of a holiday commemorating an event they don’t believe in (thus offended), let us show the love and compassion that began with an infant wrapped tightly in swaddling rags.

Saturday, December 15, 2018

Down and Dirty


When creating something from motorcycle or car part, the biggest hassle is cleaning the dirt, rust and grime off so it will look nice. But what if you are doing a project with your grandchildren (8,6,and 4) and it necessitates buying new materials? The answer, put it all in a container full of dirt and water (commonly called mud), give them each a wire brush and have them clean the nuts and bolts as best as they can. It sounds counter intuitive to buy new, get them dirty just so you can clean them. But what good art project requires little effort on the part of the artist, yet not too hard that they give up and go play with Lincoln Logs.

I was thinking about this in regards to our relationship with God. In the beginning man was created good. God knew, from the foundations of the world, that The Son would die for the sins of mankind. So, when God pronounced his creation good He knew that it would descend into the dirt and mire of the consequences of man’s rebellion. Therefore, he had a plan to clean it all up, and through faith in Jesus’ death and resurrection we become new creations, our sins are forgiven, and we are reconciled to God. However, our flesh, that part of us that leans toward sin, won’t be totally irraticated until Jesus returns. So, we were given the Holy Spirit to work in us to want and to will to do God’s good pleasure (that’s called sanctification). This is the interesting part.

Even though the Spirit works in us, we are still responsible to “work out” our salvation. The end product is God’s work, but He gives us each wire brushes to scrape away the grime and muck of our lives. We really can’t do it on our own, but it is important for us to work at it in order to appreciate both the process and the results. From our perspective we are to “be”, to “live”, to “walk”, to “work”, and to persevere. Our strength is in the Spirit as we walk in obedience to God’s Word. So, grab your wire brush and spend some time cleaning. I’m just saying.





Wednesday, December 12, 2018

Anger Issues and the Misfit Prophet

Jonah was angry at the Ninevites because they threatened the sovereign nation of Israel. Jonah was angry because God had called him to take a message of repentance to his enemy. Jonah was angry because he knew that God would forgive them if they relented. Jonah was angry because God wouldn’t let him die as an option. And when he was in the mountains, waiting to see what God would do to Nineveh, he got angry at a plant that died and didn’t give him shade. Jonah was just one angry dude.

Why was God so patient with Jonah? It’s not about Jonah, but with the message God wanted Israel to understand through Jonah’s story. Israel had gotten to a point where they believed that, as chosen people of God, they could do anything they wanted and still receive God’s blessing. Jonah’s anger served to remind Israel that they had no right to God’s Grace, it was His to dispense to anyone who repented, even their most hated enemy. Jonah, and Israel, didn’t have a right to be angry. 

Jesus reminded the Pharisees, “Bear fruit in keeping with repentance. And do not presume to say to yourselves, We have Abraham as our father,’ for I tell you, God is able from these stones to raise up children for Abraham.” Matthew 3:8. Even in Jesus’ day the religious establishment held a superiority complex in regard to their relationship with God. Jesus was constantly reminding his listeners that God’s Grace is for everyone who repents and believe, but the religious leaders of Israel wouldn’t accept it, and throwing a tantrum they killed Jesus. In doing so the gospel went to the gentiles, and those of Faith were grafted into the vine of faith. Now we, as gentiles, are the chosen Israel. But wait, what did Paul say?

“That is true. They were broken off because of their unbelief, but you stand fast through faith. So do not become proud, but fear. For if God did not spare the natural branches, neither will he spare you. Note then the kindness and the severity of God: severity toward those who have fallen, but God's kindness to you, provided you continue in his kindness. Otherwise you too will be cut off.” Romans 11:20-22.

“The heart of man is evil above all else.” God lavishes his love on us, and for some reason we begin to think that we have sole rights to His gift, and we become angry when those less deserving than us are offered the same grace. It shows itself in many ways.

    1. A fellow Christian falls into sin, repents, and you are offended and hold on to unforgiveness when God’s grace is extended. It’s easier to “run” than to truly be reconciled.
    2. A known husband who doesn’t live up to husbandly or fatherly responsibities, and when he does turn around, ever so slightly, we tend to hold our grace cautiously, when God’s Grace holds no such conditions.
    3. Your disappointed by someone in authority, and when they are repentant you offer “grace,” but reconciliation and trust are cast aside because your own pride is greater than God’s grace.
    4. A person of ill repute comes to the church and is politely greeted, but no one offers hospitality. It is embarrassing to invite her home for lunch, or to become a part of your friendship circle. We like the idea of grace and forgiveness but it is inconvenient.

At least Jonah was honest about his anger. It allowed God to work with him; in him.  Anger is an emotion that tells us something deeper is wrong. Unless we are honest about it, repent of its sin, and give our rights over to Jesus, we will remained mired in uselessness to God’s Kingdom. I’m just saying... 

Tuesday, December 11, 2018

Trump That One

I was sitting with a friend this afternoon and we were watching Fox News (liberal friends bear with me). It was a little embarrassing watching Schumer and Trump go back and forth, “you did it,” “no you did it first,” “that’s not true,” “yes it is,” “I’m going to do it my way,” “oh yeah, I’m going to sit over here and sulk.” You can’t make this stuff up. I don’t watch the news very much anymore because it can be disheartening. But then again, 

 “What causes quarrels and what causes fights among you? Is it not this, that your passions are at war within you? You desire and do not have, so you murder. You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel.” James 4:1,2.

“What I mean is that each one of you says, “I follow Paul,” or “I follow Apollos,” or “I follow Cephas,” or “I follow Christ.” Is Christ divided? Was Paul crucified for you? Or were you baptized in the name of Paul?” 1 Corinthians 1:12
 
In some churches congregational meetings sound like this, “Now some cried out one thing, some another, for the assembly was in confusion, and most of them did not know why they had come together.” Acts 19:32

  Not all churches fight tooth and nail over every little thing, but enough do for the name of Jesus to  e tarnished among unbelievers. Paul told Titus, “Show yourself in all respects to be a model of good works, and in your teaching show integrity, dignity, and sound speech that cannot be condemned, so that an opponent may be put to shame, having nothing evil to say about us.” The world is going to hate us, but let’s not give them any other reason accept for the Name of Jesus. I’m just saying...




Monday, December 10, 2018

Long Enough



Wether you are feeling the blues or you’re in full blown depression, at some point you just have to say enough.

Long Enough

I have stood in darkness long enough 
Dwelt in consuming self-pity.
I lift my head to what can be
Leave behind the shackles of depression
Why should I be tied to others?
Their lips of true love’s concern speak not 
Their empty hands pat my back
Be warmed and filled as the door closes
Today is the beginning of light
To pursue unfettered by others expectations 
Today is the beginning of what could be
To reach a new height of potential in me
One door closes and another opens 
To reveal a path un-expectantly taken 
My feet step out to find my way 
Known to God revealed to me.
Anger not at the rocky path
It hears no words of angst aggression 
Focus on the future prize
Lift high my head on a smooth path

I’ve known the lows of depression, and their are aspects of it that are chemical imbalances of the brain. Take your medication and stop whining (I know that sounds harsh). We can either wallow in self pity or we can look toward a future that is both seen and ordained by God. In that reality we then chose to thank God for everything, because it is ultimately from His hand. Complaining, getting angry, or just pouting about how unfair it is doesn’t change the situation. Trust God, and do something about your life.  I’m just saying..

Saturday, December 8, 2018

I can’t believe I’m doing this

I can have the tendency to go overboard, and then at some point in the project I want to just stop. I’ve had enough and the work that I have to go seems so much more than what I have done. So, here I am building a Lincoln logesck play house for my grandchildren. It would have been much easier to have pulled out a tent and set it up. For some reason I thought this would be so much more fun for my grandchildren (my boys say I would never have gone to this much trouble for them when they were the same age). But this is the first Christmas we will have with them, and maybe again for a long time. 

So here I am putting it together realizing that my architectural skills are lacking and so I am adjusting the plans as I go along. I am still short pieces and the lengths I have are not the right ones. Now I am counting, measuring (if necessary) sawing and sanding until I get it somewhat the way I have imagined it. All for two weeks of with my grandchildren. It reminds me of these passages of scripture:

But, as it is written,
“What no eye has seen, nor ear heard,
nor the heart of man imagined,
what God has prepared for those who love him” 1 Corinthians 2:9

“In my Father's house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you?” John 14:2

There will be a time when we will step into eternity and find more than we could ever imagine, a room just for us, built with love, and next door all those who have gone on before us. The love that I have for my grandchildren pales in comparison to that of our Heavenly Father. So, if I find this much joy in their smiles, giggles,s and delight, how much more the Father will delight in the final revelation, when My eyes will widen in awe and wonder, speechless with the joy of being in the presence of my savior and Lord; my loving Abba. I’m just saying...





Friday, December 7, 2018

Anger



We have to deal with anger at one time or another. I know I have. The following came from a time I wrestled with that awedul feeling.




        • Anger -- It swirls around in my head like electrons around the nucleus; 
          • fast, continuous, trying to escape.
        • Anger -- it wants to escape its containment, to wreak havoc on an unsuspecting crowd, 
          • to devour those who stand in its way.
        • Anger -- it pulsates and throbs like the pounding pain of a migraine.
        • Anger -- it lashes out at the innocent like a rabid dog gone mad 
        • Anger -- it consumes all that's around like a cancer 
          • eating at the rotten flesh of a living, yet dying carcass.
        • Anger -- it has little redeeming value for the human condition 
          • who knows not how to direct it towards righteousness.
        • Anger -- isolates
        • Anger -- consumes
        • Anger -- devours
        • Anger -- destroys
        • Anger -- should be left to God.

The scripture says to be angry without sin, that’s the catch isn’t it, without sin. The scripture also says that if we could bridle our tongue we could be perfect. Guess what, none of is perfect, therefore we cannot 100% hold our tongue or be angry without sin. Anger doesn’t leave room for grace and mercy, it just eats away at a person’s heart until bitterness takes control. It’s better to trust God with our anger and turn our energy toward loving others with the Love of Jesus. I’m just saying....

Thursday, December 6, 2018

Abandoned Hope



Hope is a strong emotion that gives meaning, but what if it disappears?

Evil lurks behind the ear 
Whispering words of malice 
Tempting those of weaker minds 
Steering towards destruction
No thought of goodness
No echo of what is right
No dim reminder of righteousness 
No sense of a better life
Bent towards self-gratification 
Living only for the moment 
Wading through self delusion 
No hope; No hope; No hope
They cannot hear 
They cannot see
They cannot recognize 
The ones who care
They cannot fathom
The lengths that are gone
To help them succeed
To grow into something better
They push They resist 
They fight Only to fall
The darkness consumes
The light pushes through
Only to be slapped back
And darkness lays hold once again
Those who toil on their behalf 
Exhausted rise each day
To fight a battle not their own 
Only to be mistreated
Evil lurks behind the ear 
Whispering words of malice 
What will happen to the young 
When hope has been abandoned

A friend once told me that you can’t work harder then the person you are trying to help. Sometimes it seems fruitless to continue. Jesus gives us the picture of leaving the 99 to go after that one stubborn sheep that just doesn’t want help. The evil one tells us to give up, to keep trying, he doesn’t want to work as hard as you. But then again, I’m not doing it for him, but for Jesus, who pursued me when I wasn’t interest. I’m just saying...

Wednesday, December 5, 2018

What I Should Have Said

I wonder if God ever gets discouraged? I was thinking of my sermon this past week and out of all the people of Israel, God chose Samson to be judge (not a great example of moral character). Yet, he was the best that Israel had to offer. Of course, God chose him before he was born, but to think that even then God knew there was no one better coming down the line. It is God’s relentless grace that filled in Samson’s deficiencies, and his unending love that would bring about a revival and the coming of king David. God knew there would be better days.

I sometimes would like to sit on heaven’s perch and see the totality of history, the highs of the church and the victory dinner with the Lamb of God. Maybe, that’s why the writer to the Hebrews wrote, 

“Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith” Heb. 12,1,2.

We might not have the vantage point now, but those of faith, who have gone before us, have, and they are cheering us on. Yes, there will be difficulties, yes, there will be pain, and yes there will be loss, but we don’t give up and we don’t give in. We throw off the weight of sin. By this the writer means that we are freed from sin by the blood of Jesus, so we can live rich and meaningful lives. We are free from its guilt, and can turn our hearts to praise. We aren’t bound by its shame, and we lift our heads in gratitude.

But what helps us to keep going down the narrow road? Two things. The first is the deep and abiding relationship we have with the Father. The second, is the testimony of the saints. Paul asked Philemon to refresh his spirit by testifying to the good things God was doing in their midst. There is nothing more encouraging than to hear the testimony of the transforming nature of the Gospel.

Then I got to thinking 🤔. Wouldn’t it be nice to have people stand up in church each Sunday and declare the goodness of God in their lives? But we have tried it and either no one is willing to share (for a number of good reasons) or God isn’t working in our midst. Guess what? It’s not the second reason. God is working and it is amazing. 

That got me thinking. What if you sent me an email testifying to how God has been working in your life, transforming you daily, helping you see a better way, and healing you physically or spiritually. Then I would share it (anonymously) each Sunday. 52 Sunday’s, 52 testimonies. 

That’s my Challenge to you, my brothers and sisters. Send your story to pperkins@sjm.church. I can’t wait to hear what God has been doing. Im just saying…

Monday, December 3, 2018

A Life Time



I wrote this during a time that I was question everything, and the gentle voice of God spoke clearly?



I have spent a lifetime learning Teaching others what I know
 Dispensing wisdom freely As if certain of what I speak
Words are easily spoken Rolling off the tongue freely
But without POWER
They are empty-vain-vapor in the air
Yet, with all the syllables that Have passed through these lips
 How have they changed a life?
Or impacted the world for the Kingdom?
I have spent a lifetime pursuing

A fleeting sense of glory 
Without understanding a simple truth 
That sustains us in the darkness
In prosperity it is easy
To raise our voice in hallelujahs 
Thanking God for blessings that
 Feign contentment and satisfaction
But when the winds blow 
When the storms of life create havoc 
The blessings that we gladly receive 
Are obscured behind pains darkness
It is easy, then, to forget
From whom the good things come 
To blame the giver of life
And wonder why He has withdrawn
All the wisdom once dispensed
 Ring hallow when spoken by others 
For surely my contribution given
 Is worth more then this darkness?

Forgotten, not, in the storm 
Though emotions wind blows 
He wraps a gentle arm around 
Protecting the hearts that are His
I must stop talking
I must look, listen, stand silent
I must see the blessings
I must stand in awe of His loving hand
And what simple truth stands
 As a beacon in the darkness 

What promise given to His children 
That brings hope in the silence
Emmanuel -- God with us
 God with us in the storm 
God with us in the silence
 God with us in the darkness

His blessings do not cease 
They come in unexpected ways
 His voice is not silent
He speaks in unmistakable tones
His care has not turned cold
A gentle touch is given by a friend 
His love is not diminished
It deepens with deeper knowledge
God is with us

Now the seal of the Spirit God is in us
A heart of stone now flesh
How does this truth profound 
Change the darkness of the moment 
How does God with us - in us
 Change the cloud I am in?

No promise has been given
Of paths without stones
Some pebbles, some rocks, some boulders
 Each path is laden with obstacles
Two things remain sure In this life that is ours
 It is full of obstacles 
And we are not alone
Whatever lies within our path— God is with us
 Whatever direction that is new —God is with us

In the darkness a light shines 
That we might see the obstacles 
That we might be aware 
That we might not be frightened
God with us Who can be against us
 God with us Peace is ours
In the darkness there is light 
On the path there is guidance
 In the storm there is peace 
In want there is contentment
I may not be what I once was
I may not have what I once possessed
 I may not see the future as clearly
I don’t stand as sure as before

Yet in it all 
Through it all
 Because of it all
 God is with us


During the Christmas season, remembering that, no matter what, God is with is an important truth to remember, more than ever.  I can’t count the times this simple truth has kept me from walking away. I’m just saying....

Saturday, December 1, 2018

The Narcissism of Our Pain

The following is an excerpt from my book “Reflections of a Broken Man.” It seems narcissistic to post the reflections of some of my darkest hours, but then again isn’t blogging itself self absorbed. At any rate I thought I would repost some of the poems over the next couple of days and add some additional thoughts. The opening begins:
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There are times when life is overwhelming, when the truths that we held self-evident flounder against the pain. We desperately want faith to be simple, but it seldom is, it strains against self-perceptions, voices loud and subtle. During our darkest hours (and only the individual can determine that time) the heart cries for something more, something deeper, and something that will make sense of it all.

Yet, there is little sense in the world. Evil flourishes, good people suffer, the greedy prosper, and the faithful drown under the weight of life. One-step forward and two-step backward and all. There is comfort somewhere, at least we are told, that will carry us through to a better life. But why hope for a better life when the one we are in should do us just fine?

If you are looking for encouraging poetry to lift you out of the mire, this may not be for you. These reflections are the open heart of my soul in its darkest hours. It asks questions that are seldom answered, a voice shouting into the gale force winds, lost in the void, and yet, still seeking hope. Enjoy, commiserate, or not, but keep asking questions.
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I am glad those days are past, at least for me. There are many around who move through the rhythm of their lives in pain. For us who have gone through we can offer hope, a light at the end of the tunnel. His name is Jesus. I’m just saying.

Thursday, November 29, 2018

Blind Eye and Half Deaf



He looked like he was going to snatch the purse of the woman in front of him. His pants hung half way down his hind end, a hoodie, not quite over his head, hid his eyes, and the studded chain said it all, thug. I want sure whether to step in now and stop the thief or wait for the crime and run him down (I was younger then). It happened fast, and if not for my keen wits, I would have missed the whole escaped.

“Excuse me mam, you dropped this,” and the grateful woman accepted with gratitude the wallet that had fallen out of her purse. 

I sat down a little sheepish, glad that I had not run into a situation I had no place to be. Do you understand? I saw what I wanted to see. My years of conditioning prepared me for this very moment. Everything that I should have expected from this young man was false. He wore clothing that made him feel a certain way, just like I wear motorcycle gear or a packers hat. I was his judge and I condemned him without knowing him. 

It happened again. Driving through New York, we picked up a tail. It was just like in the movies. Heading to the Statue of Liberty we were being followed. I didn’t say anything to the kids, but Rebecca and I kept a close eye on the car behind us. Sure enough, with each turn, they followed. Even driving into the packed parking lot they didn’t seem to care, we would be their next victim. I told Rebecca to stay in the van with the boys; I would face them alone.

Closing the door behind me, “Can I help you gentlemen?” The polite words tasted sour.
“The wheel fell off the tricycle. We just thought the children would be sad. So we stopped and picked it up.” Handing me the wheel they left without another word, and the guilt and shame was overwhelming.

Could these situations turned out differently? Sure, but too often we live lives with a blind eye and half deaf. If you are looking for something wrong you will find it. The opposit is true as well. If you are looking for something good you will find it. I’m not talking about the power of positive thinking, but I am sensing a need for the power of the Spirit filled life, where we look to see where God is working and rejoice with him. Are there negative things, situations where, if we let it, Satan will get a foothold? Yes. Walk out the door and you will run smack into his schemes. The scripture says he is a roaring lion looking to devour us. 

Choose another way, a better way, a more wonderful way, a narrow way that looks at life differently. “For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died for all, therefore all have died; and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised. From now on, therefore, we regard no one according to the flesh. Even though we once regarded Christ according to the flesh, we regard him thus no longer.” 2 Cor. 5:14-17.

We are so quick to judge, so quick to condemn, and then we take the high moral ground and consider ourselves as achieving what our flesh is to weak to posses. Only Through Christ can it be ours. Then we are to have a ministry of reconciliation between man and God, and between people. The first seems easier than the second.

Christians don’t really want true reconciliation. What we want is to give lip service, say our piece and then move on. But true reconciliation is confessing, forgiving and the fellowshipping. It’s the last one we run from. It’s too painful, too uncomfortable, too hard to be with people who have hurt me. Yes, I forgive you, but I can’t live with you. Hog wash. If God did that hell would be filled with forgiven people. True reconciliation doesn’t run, it perseveres. True reconciliation doesn’t hide behind a moral high horse. True reconciliation is Spirit driven, Spirit empowered, and Christ centric. Is it easy? No, but then where would faith be? 

We will find what we are looking for. Tomorrow I will look to see where God is working, it might just be in me. I’m just saying....

A Blind Eye and Half Deaf

He looked like he was going to snatch the purse of the woman in front of him. His pants hung half way down his hind end, a hoodie, not quite over his head, hid his eyes, and the studded chain said it all, thug. I want sure whether to step in now and stop the thief or wait for the crime and run him down (I was younger then). It happened fast, and if not for my keen wits, I would have missed the whole escaped.

“Excuse me mam, you dropped this,” and the grateful woman accepted with gratitude the wallet that had fallen out of her purse. 

I sat down a little sheepish, glad that I had not run into a situation I had no place to be. Do you understand? I saw what I wanted to see. My years of conditioning prepared me for this very moment. Everything that I should have expected from this young man was false. He wore clothing that made him feel a certain way, just like I wear motorcycle gear or a packers hat. I was his judge and I condemned him without knowing him. 

It happened again. Driving through New York, we picked up a tail. It was just like in the movies. Heading to the Statue of Liberty we were being followed. I didn’t say anything to the kids, but Rebecca and I kept a close eye on the car behind us. Sure enough, with each turn, they followed. Even driving into the packed parking lot they didn’t seem to care, we would be their next victim. I told Rebecca to stay in the van with the boys; I would face them alone.

Closing the door behind me, “Can I help you gentlemen?” The polite words tasted sour.
“The wheel fell off the tricycle. We just thought the children would be sad. So we stopped and picked it up.” Handing me the wheel they left without another word, and the guilt and shame was overwhelming.

Could these situations turned out differently? Sure, but too often we live lives with a blind eye and half deaf. If you are looking for something wrong you will find it. The opposit is true as well. If you are looking for something good you will find it. I’m not talking about the power of positive thinking, but I am sensing a need for the power of the Spirit filled life, where we look to see where God is working and rejoice with him. Are there negative things, situations where, if we let it, Satan will get a foothold? Yes. Walk out the door and you will run smack into his schemes. The scripture says he is a roaring lion looking to devour us. 

Choose another way, a better way, a more wonderful way, a narrow way that looks at life differently. “For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died for all, therefore all have died; and he died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised. From now on, therefore, we regard no one according to the flesh. Even though we once regarded Christ according to the flesh, we regard him thus no longer.” 2 Cor. 5:14-17.

We are so quick to judge, so quick to condemn, and then we take the high moral ground and consider ourselves as achieving what our flesh is to weak to posses. Only Through Christ can it be ours. Then we are to have a ministry of reconciliation between man and God, and between people. The first seems easier than the second.

Christians don’t really want true reconciliation. What we want is to give lip service, say our piece and then move on. But true reconciliation is confessing, forgiving and the fellowshipping. It’s the last one we run from. It’s too painful, to uncomfortable, to hard to be with people who have hurt me. Yes, I forgive you, but I can’t live with you. Hog wash. If God did that hell would be filled with forgiven people. True reconciliation doesn’t run, it perseveres. True reconciliation doesn’t hide behind a moral high horse. True reconciliation is Spirit driven, Spirit empowered, and Christ centric. Is it easy? No, but then where would faith be? 

We will find what we are looking for. Tomorrow I will look to see where God is working, it might just be in me. I’m just saying....

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

If I Could Not Do It All Over Again....


Regret is an evil stepchild. It lingers in the back of the mind, tugging at yesterday, holding back tomorrow. It doesn’t want you to be happy, and reminds you of what could have been without offering any hope for what will be. Let me say off the bat, I have no regrets, but if I could do it all over again I would:

  1. Have learned to dance. I took Rebecca to a two hour, private ballroom dance lesson. We danced once after that, and no, it’s not because I think dancing is evil.
  2. Have learned to fly. I have several reoccurring dreams and the most exillerating is the one where I lean as far forward as I can until my feet move so fast that I take off, aided with flapping arms. Once in the air I can soar as free as a bird. These is something about flying that sets you free.
  3. Have traveled before ministry and kids. We were so serious to change the world, that we missed opportunities just to see the world and spend time together. 

That’s a short list, because, when I think about it, God has blessed me with the most wonderful wife ever, three amazing boys, three even more amazing daughter-in-laws, and three beautiful (amazing) grandchildren. I have the privilege of knowing Abrar and calling her my daughter (A foreign exchange student). I have enjoyed the warm, soft nuzzle of a horse, and the wet cold noes of some crazy dogs. I have traveled to Greece, Turkey, Jordan, Mexico, Hong Kong, Macau, Taiwan, and Bahrain. I have been to most of the States in the Union. I have scuba dived with sharks, jumped out of airplanes, rode motorcycles too fast (crashed twice), backpacked in mountains and deserts, and rode a train across the country. 

I have walked in the rain, holding the hand of my sweetheart, and kissed her under a full moon. I have argued with her, and been infuriated, only to know the sweetness of reconciliation. She brings the best out of me, and helps me navigate the darker side of my soul.

I have held a newborn in my arms, and the hand of the elderly passing from this life. I have experienced the joy of new life and the sorrow of death too soon. I have known the hungry and abandoned, and I have seen, but never known, despair. No, I have no regrets, and I wouldn’t have done it differently. Our past shapes us, develops our characteristics, and what made me, me early on in life, is what God used to bring me to where I am, and I am blessed. I’m just saying....

Gratitude Schmatitude — What’s The Big Deal

Ever since I was a little kid, my mom would remind me, “Paul, say please and thank you.” I can understand the please, it’s a requisite to getting something. But the “thank you” part seems unnecessary. Why should I say thank you for someone doing their job, for a mother’s love, or for a polite gesture from a complete stranger, for that matter. I didn’t ask them to open the door. I mean, if they did it for the response, then where is the ultruism in the act? It’s not that I think I am entitled to the goodness of others, it’s just that the goodness should be displayed regardless of a thank you. 

My mother complained to me one time that my brother didn’t appreciate all that she had done for him. “If only he would say thank you. Is that too much to ask?” I told here if his ingratitude bothered her so much, then maybe she should stop giving to him, or doing so much for him. It’s much easier to complain about others ingratitude than to own up to the fact that it is the comments of appreciation that are coveted. 

Gratitude is an expression of appreciation for an act of kindness shown by someone else. The greater the act of kindness the greater the expression of gratitude. Gratuity that we pay at restaurants is a prime example. Often the reciept will give suggested options (I’ve never seen one under ten percent). The greater the service, kindness, and promptness impacts the rate of which I pay in gratitude. It’s the same way in life, and in our spiritual lives as well.

Maybe that’s why the Bible talks a lot about Gratitude. Imagine standing at your window, watching the snow blow gently across your lawn. How marvelous to know that it wasn’t a mistake, that God works all things together for good. Each morning is a gift for which we should express gratitude. Each breath is a gift for which we should give thanks. When all the mornings and all the breaths are taken away, may our hearts take flight for the greatest of loves, and our tongue confess gratitude for His glory above.

“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. Do not quench the Spirit”1 Thess. 5:16b-19.

Gratitude is God’s will. Gratitude opens the door for the Spirit to work. Gratitude is on-going and in EVERY situation. Gratitude is the borromotor of our spiritual health. So today I would like to express my gratitude:

  1. For the saving love of Jesus, and the life giving Spirit that dwells in me.
  2. For my wife, who is the living example of Christ’s love in my life.
  3. For my children, daughter-in-laws, grandchildren, and Abrar (my Bahraini daughter) who are the joy of my life.
  4. For a church family (warts and all) who is willing to walk through this messy life together, offering grace, expressing love, and chastising when appropriate.
  5. For the means to live comfortably and to bless others when needed.
  6. The freedom of liberty that our country enjoys by the grace of God.

There is much more that I will express in the privacy of my prayer, but for now I want to say thank you, to you, for what you mean to me. I’m just saying.

(Backup) Gratitude Schmatitude — What’s The Big Deal

Ever since I was a little kid, my mom would remind me, “Paul, say please and thank you.” I can understand the please, it’s a requisite to getting something. But the “thank you” part seems unnecessary. Why should I say thank you for someone doing their job, for a mother’s love, or for a polite gesture from a complete stranger, for that matter. I didn’t ask them to open the door. I mean, if they did it for the response, then where is the ultruism in the act? It’s not that I think I am entitled to the goodness of others, it’s just that the goodness should be displayed regardless of a thank you. 

My mother complained to me one time that my brother didn’t appreciate all that she had done for him. “If only he would say thank you. Is that too much to ask?” I told here if his ingratitude bothered her so much, then maybe she should stop giving to him, or doing so much for him. It’s much easier to complain about others ingratitude than to own up to the fact that it is the comments of appreciation that are coveted. 

Gratitude is an expression of appreciation for an act of kindness shown by someone else. The greater the act of kindness the greater the expression of gratitude. Gratuity that we pay at restaurants is a prime example. Often the reciept will give suggested options (I’ve never seen one under ten percent). The greater the service, kindness, and promptness impacts the rate of which I pay in gratitude. It’s the same way in life, and in our spiritual lives as well.

Maybe that’s why the Bible talks a lot about Gratitude. Imagine standing at your window, watching the snow blow gently across your lawn. How marvelous to know that it wasn’t a mistake, that God works all things together for good. Each morning is a gift for which we should express gratitude. Each breath is a gift for which we should give thanks. When all the mornings and all the breaths are taken away, may our hearts take flight for the greatest of loves, and our tongue confess gratitude for His glory above.

“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. Do not quench the Spirit”1 Thess. 5:16b-19.

Gratitude is God’s will. Gratitude opens the door for the Spirit to work. Gratitude is on-going and in EVERY situation. Gratitude is the borromotor of our spiritual health. So today I would like to express my gratitude:

For the saving love of Jesus, and the life giving Spirit that dwells in me.
For my wife, who is the living example of Christ’s love in my life.
For my children, daughter-in-laws, grandchildren, and Abrar (my Bahraini daughter) who are the joy of my life.
For a church family (warts and all) who is willing to walk through this messy life together, offering grace, expressing love, and chastising when appropriate.
For the means to live comfortably and to bless others when needed.
The freedom of liberty that our country enjoys by the grace of God.

There is much more that I will express in the privacy of my prayer, but for now I want to say thank you, to you, for what you mean to me. I’m just saying.

Thursday, November 22, 2018

What I am Thanful for—the grandnephews and nieces



What are you thankful for?

Grand Nephew 1. “It can’t be for the turkey. I’m thankful for church.”
Me. “Why are you thankful for church?
Grand nephew 1. Pause...”I just am.”
Me. “That’s good, I’m thankful for church because it’s where we go to worship together.”

Grand niece 1. “I’m thankful for food.”
Me. “Why are you thankful for food?”
Grand niece 1. “Because it keeps us from starving.”
Me. “Well, we didn’t starve today, did we?”

Grand nephew 2. “I’m thankful for family, because they give you someone to play with.”
Me. “Why are you, oh,...playing with family can be a lot of fun.”

Grand niece 2. “I’m thankful for God.”
Me. “Why are you thankful for God?”
Grand niece 2. “Because he made everything.”
Me. “That’s right, and I’m glad he made you.”

Grand niece 3 (eyes old). “Unintelligible.”
Me. “I know what you mean.”

Me. “I’m thankful for Grandchildren, no matter whose they are, because they tie me over until I get to see mine.” At the end of the evening they each gave me as big a hug as they could to hold me over until my grandchildren come in a few weeks. I don’t know about you, but I had a great Thanksgiving! Oh, yea, and the Turkey was great too! I’m just saying...

Wednesday, November 21, 2018

Dogs Do, What Dogs Do

My neibors, to the south, at least I think it is south, Bluffton is layed out at an angle, anyway. My neighbors have a mangary of dogs and cats. The gentleman will walk his five small dogs along his property line and behind him will be an assortment of cats and kittens. They follow him, there has to be at least 20, and they’re cute, and for the most part stay away from our house. Not that we don’t like cats, but I’m not sure what Porthos would do, or at least I didn’t know what Porthos would do.

I was in my garage, door open, when I saw a wall of fur flash by. Behind him, which seemed funny, was a cat runny toward the dog that stood between it and freedom. I didn’t think Pothose could maneuver so quickly, and neither did the cat. The feline disappeared beneath the thick coat of the canine. I started yelling at Porthos to come. He looked up and then down, resuming his (I can’t even bear thinking about it) attempt to subdue the cat. Finally, he relented to my calls and the cat fled beneath the trees that boardered the property. I couldn’t tell, but beneath the fury smile of my dog might have been a little cat nip.

“This is an evil in all that is done under the sun, that the same event happens to all. Also, the hearts of the children of man are full of evil, and madness is in their hearts while they live, and after that they go to the dead. But he who is joined with all the living has hope, for a living dog is better than a dead lion” Eccl. 9:3,4.

That poor cat almost experienced what happens to every living thing—death. The writer of Ecclesiastes reminds us that death is an evil. The idea that death is just a part of the circle of life is a lie. Death is an evil, an enemy, it was never meant to be a part of our experience. Death is the result of sin, it’s a curse, it’s the consequence of our rebellion against God. That is why we pray for Jesus to return. His coming brings the final reconciliation and death will be thrown into the lake of fire. The problem is that those who are still in their disbelief will suffer the righteous judgement of God. That’s why the writer says it is better to live with hope, even if wickedness is all around us. Some might come to believe. Peter puts it like this,


“The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance” 2 Peter 3:9.

As long as He is patient. As long as we are alive. As long as there is day, it is better to be a live dog than a dead lion (cat). I’m just saying...





Tuesday, November 20, 2018

What I Should Have Said

How do you make the difficult decisions in your life, especially if they affect other people? How do you make decisions when everyone has different perspectives, different goals, and different ideas?  What if you know what the right decision is, but to make it, or require others to make it, breaks trust? In the book of Philemon the right choice was to receive Onesimus with open arms, not as a slave, but as a brother in Christ. The implication was that every slave who believed should be a brother and not property. It would undermine the whole Roman system.  Paul, however, didn’t care about provincial customs, cultural taboos, or religious ritual. He cared only for the will of God. If that meant relinquishing his “right” to authority in order to give people the opportunity to do the right thing, giving them the right to fail, he would do it. The reason he could allow people to fail is because he truly believed the sovereignty of God.

God’s will is immutable. God’s will is omnipotent. God’s will is omniscient. God’s will is all powerful. God’s will is holy. God’s will is righteous. God’s will is pure. God’s will is true. God’s will is just. God’s will is good. God’s will is pervasive. As such, God’s will doesn’t need our help, unless he asks for it, and whatever God’s will is, we can’t thwart it. So if Paul let’s someone make a decision, no matter the outcome, God’s will will be accomplished, either now or in the future. Paul said, “God works all things together for good, to those who are called according to His purpose.” The problem arises when there are multiple decisions that are conflicting. It’s mind boggling to think that God works it all together. All we have to do is to open our eyes to see God’s hand at work. Maybe what we need to do in order to see God’s hand at work, is to open ours, and let go…I’m just saying.

By the way. This Sunday in Church we will have a time of open sharing, where people can stand up and voice their heart of Gratitude, and the congregation can rejoice together. Be thinking of what you will share.

Friday, November 16, 2018

One Man, One Hour, God’s Glory

It’s only lonely at the top if you push everyone else off. Our culture looks at power and authority in terms of who is first or in charge. Leadership books and articles will talk about the need for collaboration, working together, sharing responsibility (both blame and praise). It never really works that way. There is always someone who will take the fall or bear the ire of shareholders or customers. 

I guess it really isn’t our culture. Jesus chastised the disciples for the same thinking. “Who will be first?” He reoriented their thinking, it’s the servant who is first. Of course he had to teach that lesson over and over before they got it. Even then it came down to one man who ended up taking the blame for everyone else, because Jesus is the only one who can shoulder such responsibility. It really comes down to one thing, and it isn’t about who is first or last. It is about the man who God calls to a task, and is willing to stand or fall against the back drop of God’s will. Look at the falling list of men God called to an impossible task, only to find it possible through His grace.

Adam — “Thus it is written, “The first man Adam became a living being”; the last Adam became a life-giving spirit.” 1 Cor. 15:45

Noah — “When Lamech had lived 182 years, he fathered a son
and called his name Noah, saying, “Out of the ground that the Lord has cursed, this one shall bring us relief from our work and from the painful toil of our hands.” Genesis 5:29

Abraham — “No longer shall your name be called Abram, but your name shall be Abraham, for I have made you the father of a multitude of nations. I will make you exceedingly fruitful, and I will make you into nations, and kings shall come from you.” Genesis 17:5,6

Job — “And the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job, that there is none like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man, who fears God and turns away from evil?”” Job 1:8

David — “the Lord said, “Arise, anoint him, for this is he.” Then Samuel took the horn of oil and anointed him in the midst of his brothers. And the Spirit of the Lord rushed upon David from that day forward.” 1 Samuel 16:12,13

John the Baptist — “Truly, I say to you, among those born of women there has arisen no one greater than John the Baptist.” Matthew 11:11

Jesus — “When Jesus had received the sour wine, he said, “It is finished,” and he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.” John 19:30

Peter — “Jesus said to him, “Feed my sheep. Truly, truly, I say to you, when you were young, you used to dress yourself and walk wherever you wanted, but when you are old, you will stretch out your hands, and another will dress you and carry you where you do not want to go.” (This he said to show by what kind of death he was to glorify God.) And after saying this he said to him, “Follow me.” John 21:18,19

Paul — “For I am already being poured out as a drink offering, and the time of my departure has come. I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.” 2 Timothy 4:6,7

Jesus — “Then I saw heaven opened, and behold, a white horse! The one sitting on it is called Faithful and True, and in righteousness he judges and makes war. His eyes are like a flame of fire, and on his head are many diadems, and he has a name written that no one knows but himself. He is clothed in a robe dipped in blood, and the name by which he is called is The Word of God.” Rev. 19:11-23 

Each of us face a moment in which we chose to walk down one of two given roads. The proverbial fork in the road. The one you chose will shape you the rest of your life. The only sure thing is that whichever road you chose, it needs to be God’s best for you. That takes wisdom, counsel, and fortitude, because once you chose the evil one wants nothing more than to cause you stumble. If you do stumble, you are likely to stumble alone, unless your are blessed with friends who will walk the tough road with you. Be of good cheer, Jesus never leaves or forsakes us. What type of person will you be today? What road will you chose? Who will you take with you. I’m just saying...

Thursday, November 15, 2018

Slaying Monsters


Imagine standing at the mouth of a very large cave. You had heard the stories, and they must have been true, for surely in just the telling of them, made them even more real. True or false the cave stood before you like the mouth of the monster itself. Why, you thought out loud, would anyone want to enter the cave in the first place. There must be more noble endeavors to keep oneself occupied. Yet, there you stood, sword in hand. It felt light in your grip, at least for a moment. The fine carved stick soon weighed as heavy as any real sword, of any real knight. 

The wind blew past your head, hair wildly blowing, and howeling down the cavern’s mouth. A flicker of light, was it real? The low moan, was it the wind or something else? Frozen with fear kept your feet from running away, and forward seemed the only option. Each stepped echoed in your ears, as only soft foot falls could be heard by the creatures scurrying away. The light flickered again, and the shadow against the wall exentuated the horrible teeth just beyond the vile curtain of smoke. 

“It is my destiny,” the little knight said, chest puffed out. “It is what I was meant to do, it is what I must do.” Sword held high the young warrior marched to what was most likely to be his doom. No longer did his knees quake. No longer did his heart pound within his chest. No longer did he wield his trusty sword. For what lay beyond the glowing lights and hell pale smoke was not what he might have expected, I know for a fact he hadn’t  a clue. But when he rounded the inner chamber there it—-no, there she sat. His little sister, a small table, and the most precious table of tea. “Would you like some,” she asked? “Indeed I would,” he said. 


The wind blew through the hall window and blew the bedroom door shut, and both brother and sister jumped in fright, and then rolled in laughter.

What is your destiny? What are you meant for? We each have a purpose, a calling that can only be achieved if we face the monsters in front of us. Whether real or imaginary the creepy, crawlies of our lives are designed to tear down, to keep us quaking in fear. With confidence we can march headlong toward our doom if we know that the outcome is sure. For nothing can separate us from the love of God. Nothing can stand against us if the Lord is in our side.  Nothing can storm the gates of heaven and prevail, for the Lord is on our side. For we are more than conquerors in Christ and the monsters that loom so large, whisp away at the name of Jesus. Even little sisters....I’m just saying...

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

Itchy Palms, I Mean Crazy Itchy Palms

I had lunch with a good friend today. We went to a restersunt I had never been to before, and was hopeful when I saw BBQ in its name. Never judge a book by its cover, but this place looked more like “bar meets supper club” (If you don’t know what a supper club is then you’ve never lived in Wisconsin). To my delight it was wings Wed. and how can you let that go by. I ordered the Kickin’ BBQ, and was assured that the only thing that it would kick is a sleeping dog. It lived down to its expectations. Don’t get me wrong the sauce was good, and I was happy to let sleeping dogs lie. 

On the way back to the church it started, and I wasn’t sure if I would make it. The intestinal distress came on like a flood, and when I jumped out of the truck...let’s just say casual greetings and pleasant helloes were not first on my agenda. Then all was well. Until I was sitting talking with a coworker. The palms of my hands began to itch. I mean, get down, rub off the skin itchy. Pointed in the direction of the kitchen I grabbed the benedryl anti itching stick and rubbed it all over the palms of my hands. Suffice it to say, it did little to help. I then soaked my hands in hot water, and the itching eventually subsided, along with the intestinal distress. We called the restaurant and asked for the sauce ingredients, nothing unusual there. It remains a mystery, but there is a superstition surrounding itchy palms. According to “budgets are sexy.com” the following could be an answer.

There’s an old superstition that when your palms itch it means money. An itching left palm means money to be paid out, while an itching right palm is money coming in. To stop the left palm from itching, the superstition says to rub the palm on a piece of wood.

There may be something to this old tale, since itching palms often show new internal energy moving through the hands. The left hand is the passive or receptive, and the right is the active. When the left palm itches, look for new energy or services coming into your life – Of course this will probably cost you some money. The right palm itching means energy or services going out – Work you might get paid for.

Touching or rubbing wood is a very old method for transferring or releasing unwanted energy buildup (thus expressions like “touch wood”), so if your left palm itches, try rubbing it on the corner of a table – If you don’t get a splinter, perhaps you’ll save some money!

Well, it was payday and I did pay some bills. Both palms were equally itchy, so I guess my finances will equal out. They usually do. “Why should a fool have money in his hand to buy wisdom when he has no sense?” (Proverbs 17:16). All I know is that constant, intense itching would be a horrible way to live or die. Next time I will try the wood...I’m just saying.



Tuesday, November 13, 2018

FRANK Has Left The Building

My jaw dropped. I looked up to where he always sat, stoic, strong, and ready to listen. Frank’s constant presence was a reminder of our need to take a deep breath and remain silent. Frank never spoke, but he said a lot. I remember once speaking to one of the administrators and we were trying to make a decision. Turning to Frank was the logical course of action, he was always frank and spoke frankly on every topic, if you were ready to listen. So what happened to Frank? Someone new and someone old, and an institution of SJM was gone.

If you don’t know who Frank is, join the club. What I refer to as frank is an old wooden foot rest with the name Frank carved in the top. The foot rest was found underneath a pew and placed on top of the administrwtor’s desk. Frank was friendly, real, accountable, near, and knowledgeable. Not everyone appreciated his ever present gaze, they would ask why he was there? When explained, they politely acknowledged his keen insight and went on to another topic. So, when a new administrator came on staff, someone who did not truly know Frank, her gift of cleaning out paced Frank’s usefulness. Frank was removed from his place of prominence and came to rest in a corner of the workroom. From there, our faithful maintenance personnel, saw Frank’s presence coming to an end, and out into the dumpster he went. No fanfare, no solemn moment, just a heave and a hoe.

So what can be learned from Frank? 1. Silence is energizing. 2. Stopping and taking a deep breath is always good before speaking. 3. Words are over rated, when reflection is what is needed. 4. Faithfulness means being ignored st times. And finally, 5. “Don’t ask for whom the dumpster calls, it calls for you.” Frank you will be missed.

But hey, look, there’s BoB!




Tuesday, November 6, 2018

Whispers, Lies, and Forgotten Rainbows


What is it about the human condition that wants to believe the worst in people? Experience, maybe. We trust people and they fail us, sometimes it is small, other times it is dramatic. We shut down, pull back and start to believe the whisper in our ear that reinforces the age old lie, “we (they) are not enough,” we (they) are not good enough.” If we are not careful the darkness overwhelms us and it’s cold becomes a way of  life. Listening to the radio this morning the first song up reminded me again that the only voices I can believe are, first and foremost, Jesus, then those who love Him with their whole hearts and seek His glory above all else. Enjoy.

I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up
Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?
Remind me once again just who I am, because I need to know (ooh oh)
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing


You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe
The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me
In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity, (ooh oh)
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
And You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
Oh, I believe
Taking all I have and now I'm laying it at Your feet
You have every failure God, and You'll have every victory, (ooh oh)
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe
Oh I believe (I), yes I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
Oh I believe (oh)
I’m Just Saying....
Songwriters: Paul Mabury / Lauren Ashley Daigle / Jason Ingram
You Say lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Saturday, November 3, 2018

The Value Of Nothing

Have you ever just craved nothing; no interruptions, no noise, no hassles, no relational problems, no responsibilities. There are times I can sit on the front porch, stare out across the field and enjoy, well, nothing. There are all kinds of nothings, and if life is long enough I hope to enjoy more of them.

Nothing, sometimes, even tastes good. I was walking through the market looking for Apple juice (healthy) and came upon a ben with different Hostess products (unhealthy). There on top lay the most wonderful of all treats, Twinkie’s! You might think this silly, but I grew up on twinkies, back before I turned 30 and could eat anything without gaining weight. Twinkies have nothing of virtue in them accept pure deliciousness. What more could one ask for? “Do you want the twinkies in a bage,” The ckerk asked. Are you joking, put such Heavenly delicacies in a bag where they can be crushed? Would you throw a carton of eggs in the bottom and cast can goods on top? How ridiculous! “No, thank you,” I answered. Twinkies are full of nothing, and yet they can bring such joy.

I began wondering about all the nothings in the Bible. Here are a few:
  1. Nothing can stop God from blessing us, Numbers 22:11
  2. Nothing can keep God from providing for our needs, Deut 8:8-10
  3. Nothing can hinder God from saving, 1 Sam. 14:6
  4. Nothing is impossible when God’s involved, Mart. 17:20,21
  5. Nothing is impossible with God, Luke 1:27. 
  6. Nothing should be expected in return, when doing good, Luke 6:35 
  7. Nothing will hurt us when God sends us out. Luke 10:19
  8. Nothing good dwells in my flesh, Romans 7:18
  9. Nothing is lacking when we all share,  2 Cor. 8:15
  10. Nothing should be done with selfish ambition and deceit. Phil 2:3
  11. Nothing was brought into this world, and we will take nothing out, 1 Tim. 6:7 
  12. Nothing can separate us from the love of God In Christ,
When I think about nothing the passage that comes to mind is, “What has been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done, and there is nothing new under the sun” (Ecc. 1:9). From man’s perspective this can seem true. We come up with what we think are new ideas, but they are old ideas repackaged. Not so with God, “Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert” (Isaiah 43:19). Jesus said he was ushering in a new Kingdom, His blood a new covenant, and with that, he would make all things new. Each morning, before the day’s nothings begin, God has provided mercies, new exciting and free. When asked, “what’s going on?” A bleiver should never say “nothing,” unless he is talking about the nothings of God. For God is always at work that we might want and do His good will, and (like John Piper says) we are most satisfied when God is most glorified. That’s nothing to sneeze at. I’m just saying...

Life Is Short And Death Is Sure



The orange leaves rustle in the wind; unfixed they flutter to the ground. Yellow, red, orange, green and the artist splashes color against His canvas until the masterpiece is finished.  But, then again, it is never finished as Spring bursts forth life from the dreary cold of winter. Summer’s lush greens fight through a mixture of wet and dry until the earth, beaten and bruised, once again, stumbles into Fall.  Silently the leaves fall to the ground like the tears of a battered spouse.

“For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies” (Romans 8:20-22).

Rebecca took this picture. The vivid color is awe inspiring. But the colors reveal a process of life and death. Well, the tree doesn’t really die, it pulls back its nutrients in order to preserve its life during the cold winter months. There are two things in this picture. First, to survive in a hostile environment, you need to fall back to your core. We each have a set of core values, some written, most not. Our core values drive us into the ground or they lift us up to life. My core values come from the Bible: 1. To have a heart and passion for God and his glory, 2. To have a heart of prayer, 3. To have a heart for the Word of God, 4. To have a heart for service, 5. To have a heart for the lost. 6. To have a heart of Gratitude, 7. To have a heart of contentment, 8. To have a heart of integrity, 9. To have a heart for the family of God. These nine core values are the target, I don’t accomplish them all the time, but the goal remains true in the midst of my groaning.

The second point is that no matter how much we try and cheat the pain of a fallen world, two things remain true, “life is shorter than we realize, and death comes to all.” This sounds drab and tiring, but it’s not. If not for the groaning there would be no rejoicing, if not for the usual there wouldn’t be the fantastic. In the midst of our groaning we wait eagerly for our adoption and our redemption (not of our souls, but of our bodies). When Jesus returns we will see glory for what it truly is, for we will see Jesus face to face. Until then, we need to be about our Father’s business of calling the world to follow Jesus, and helping them grow into his image. We are part of the tapestry the artist is painting. 

So, we groan and wait eagerly, waiting for our adoption and redemption, not in sorrow but in victory, not in despair but in hope. “No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord,” (Romans 8:37-39). I’m just saying...

Friday, November 2, 2018

Running With The Big Dogs and Falling Behind


9 REASONS IT’S HARD TO ATTEND A CHURCH ONCE YOU’VE BEEN INVOLVED IN LEADING ONE
An interesting article to reflect on. I know my own issues. Tell me what you think of this article.


If you’ve struggled with this feeling before, ask yourself whether any of these 9 reasons might be part of your struggle:

1. YOUR IDENTITY IS TIED TO WHAT YOU DO, NOT WHO YOU ARE

So who are you really? A preacher? A musician? A worship leader? A student director? An elders? An usher? A group leader? A staff member?

No you’re not.

You’re a child of God redeemed by a Saviour who came for you.

So many of us define who we are by what we do. I struggle against this every day.

Before you dismiss this, do this simple test that Tim Keller offers.

“If work [or ministry] is your idol, if you are successful it goes to your head, if you are a failure it goes to your heart.”

Boom. Maybe your identity is more tied up in what you do than you think.

2. YOU LIKE BEING THE CENTER OF ATTENTION

As Andy Stanley says, anyone who’s ever strapped on a microphone is a little like Lady Gaga; we all live for the applause. Come to think of us, many of us don’t need a mic for that.

Could it be that you’ve grown accustomed to being the center of attention, no matter how small your audience might be?

Often my decision that something doesn’t fit ‘me’ is far more a statement about me than it is about whatever I’m uncomfortable with.

3. YOU’VE SEEN HOW THE SAUSAGE IS MADE AND HAVE LOST YOUR APPETITE

Yep. Church is messy, flawed, disappointing and at times deeply hurtful.

Largely because people are messy, flawed, disappointing and at times deeply hurtful. And we live on this side of heaven.

Hurt, unresolved, breeds cynicism. And there are so many cynical former church attenders who simply haven’t addressed their unresolved issues.

Part of maturity involves realizing that I contribute to messy sausage making. I am part of the problem. And so is almost every leader who has abandoned church.

Jesus never said we would be known for our perfection. But he did say we would be known by our love.

Love owns my share. Love forgives. Love says I’m sorry. Love reconciles. Love works toward a better tomorrow.

Love sees who you really are and stays anyway.

4. YOU’VE BECOME MORE OF A CRITIC THAN A WORSHIPPER

This one’s hard. Once you’ve been on the inside, you listen ‘at’ a sermon as much as you listen ‘to’ a message.

You ask “What’s he doing here? Why did he make that transition this way? What’s up with his body language?”

Musicians critique the music. Guest services people criticize greeters. Graphic design people laugh at other designs.

And lead pastors critique everything.

What’s missing in this picture?

Humility. Submission. Grace. That’s all.

5. YOU THINK YOU’RE BETTER OR SMARTER THAN THE PEOPLE WHO MERELY ATTEND

This one’s ugly.

I don’t know what else to say about it except stop it. Really.

Okay one more thing. So maybe you are smart. Or more successful. Got that.

If you think you’re too important to help someone, stop fooling yourself. You’re not that important.

6. SOMEWHERE IN THE PROCESS, YOUR PERSONAL WALK WITH GOD TANKED

Leadership is best when it springs from the overflow of our personal walk with God.

There are many ways unusual church leader struggle with God (I wrote about 5 of them here), but just because you lost your closeness to God while leading in a church doesn’t mean church is bad.

He loves you, and He loves the church in all of its weakness.

 7. YOU’VE FORGOTTEN YOU’RE A FOLLOWER, NOT JUST A LEADER

Originally all of us got into ministry after we decided to become followers of Jesus. That following should never stop.

The best leaders are actually the best followers.

A leader who can only lead but not follow is actually not a great leader. And certainly not a godly leader.

8. YOU’RE NEGLECTING THE FACT THAT YOU STILL HAVE A ROLE TO PLAY

I know it’s cliche, but the goal is not to attend church or go to church. You are the church.

But, for reasons outlined here, I think the church is so much stronger when we are together, not when we are apart.

While we can all use some rehab in a back row of a church somewhere from season to season, ultimately, every follower of Christ has a role to play in the local church. Even if it’s not your favourite role or a role you’re used to.

Being involved is one of the best ways to stay engaged, even if it’s not what you used to do or want to do.

9. ‘WHY’ HAS DIED ON THE ALTAR OF ‘WHAT’ AND ‘HOW’

Church leadership is a lot of ‘what’ and ‘how’. I find I have to remind myself daily of the ‘why’ of church.

Why?

  • Because God is good.
  • Because he loves us.
  • Because Jesus gave his life for a world he desperately loves.
  • Because our cities are full of people who don’t know the love of Christ.
  • Because my life is not my own.
  • Because the church was Jesus’ idea.
  • Because grace ultimately makes all things new.

So does that help? I realize these reasons will not address every issue, and that some will flail against any organized church no matter what is said.

But so many leave unnecessarily. Maybe you’re one of them. If any of these reasons are true, what will you do about them?

I know that working through them has kept my passion and hope for the local church strong, even if it flickers in the wind some days